The Intro to Psychology course at HSU has been very interesting. We covered many topics having to do with Psychology throughout the semester, having to with how we learn, our personalities, the brain itself, psychological disorders, memory, and much more. I found all the topic we covered very intriguing, and I recommend that anyone look into these subjects at some point in their life.
If there is one thing that I learned from this class, it is that these topics are very relevant to our lives, as so many people are affected by different parts of psychology in so many ways, all the time. Always. I realized that it is very important to be aware of these different aspects. Going out and doing activities really helped with this too, as I was able to see examples of the different parts of psychology taking effect in the real world.
My favorite activity we did was when we had to go out and ask people a bunch of true or false questions. Some of them seemed kind of easy, and others seemed really out-of-the-ordinary and pretty difficult to figure out. Later on, once we came back, we found out that all of the answers to the questions were false. Any answer that was said to be true was an incorrect stereotype, usually associated with a stigma toward whatever it dealt with. This activity made me realize how little a lot of people know about people and situations. The idea of associating certain groups with certain things or problems was in itself an example of Psychology.
We also did many module experimental tasks outside of class, ones that we had to do for homework. While there were a lot, there was one task that stood out to me specifically. It was the task about memory. Before I even did the task, I was curious as to how it would go because I already knew I myself had a bad memory. I was intrigued once I read what the task was. I then watched a video about how someone else had responded to it. The results were very interesting. The task consisted of me reading a list of related things (like things having to do with sleep), but not saying the actual word that they were about (so I would leave out the actual word "sleep"). The person hearing the list of words would then have to write as many words that they could remember that I said, once I was done. In the video, the person that was being tested ended up writing what you would think to be a word said (like "sleep"), even though it was incorrect. I thought it very fascinating that our brains could be tricked into thinking something had been said that really had not been. I then proceeded to perform the experiment with my brother. The result was the same, for the most part. I also had my girlfriend do the test, and the same happened with her. It was pretty cool being able to see firsthand how easily our brains' memory can falter and be tricked into something.
One of the harder parts of the class for me were the assigned videos and TedTalks we were supposed to watch. Do not get me wrong, I thought the videos I watched were interesting, but the problem I had was that I did not have time to watch as many as I was supposed/wanting to. But again, the videos I was able to watch, I thought, were very interesting and informative. There was a TedTalk about sleep that drew my attention, talking about how it is when we are in our deepest part of sleeping that the brain goes through the most healthy rest and activity. Since I am a college student, I am not able to get that much sleep, so watching the video really made me appreciate the little sleep I am able to get all the more, and helped me to try and get more sleep if I got the chance.
There was one activity that stood out to me, but mainly because I did not think it was very accurate. We did this "privilege race," where we all stood in a line, and were about to run to the other side of the football field. Whoever got to the other side first got a prize. However, before we began, a list of "privileges" were called out. If we had them, we had to take a step forward, giving us an advantage over the others behind us. I did not like this activity because I did not think it properly illustrated our lives correctly. First off, many of the things listed either did not seem like something that would greatly affect how we were able to live our life, and most were things that would be the outcome not of something that we could not control, but of something as the result of our own decisions. Also, just because some people have more "privileges," does not mean their life is any easier than someone who does not. And finally, what truly made the activity incorrect was the goal. The goal was to get the prize first. As if there was only one person that could really get to it. In real life, metaphorically speaking, the goal is not to get there first, but to simply get there. In our lives, if we do not have the same outcome as someone else, that is okay. That is the whole point. The main goal is not to beat everyone else or get the exact same amount of gratification from a certain thing as everyone else. The goal of life should be to lead a life well-lived. There should not be one prize at the end of the field. There should be a prize for everyone at the end. But everyone still needs to run their own race to get there. Some may finish before others, but everyone should be able to get there.
Overall, Psychology was a very thought-provoking class. I really enjoyed the interactions with the other students. I will not lie, it was kind of an awkward class at first, but once the semester got going, it felt a lot more comfortable to be there. The subjects covered were very interesting and I was shown many examples of how they can affect us in our lives.
- Christian Fortner
HSU Psychology Blog
Christian Fortner's blog for his Intro to Psychology class at Hardin-Simmons University.
Wednesday, May 2, 2018
Monday, April 30, 2018
My Strengths
I took a strengths test the other day. It was probably the longest strengths test I've taken (it took me about an hour, consisting of a whopping 240 questions). Once I was finished, it gave me which strengths I scored the highest in:
1. Spirituality, sense of purpose, and faith
- "You have strong and coherent beliefs about the higher purpose and meaning of the universe. You know where you fit in the larger scheme. Your beliefs shape your actions and are a source of comfort to you."
2. Perspective wisdom
- "Although you may not think of yourself as wise, your friends hold this view of you. They value your perspective on matters and turn to you for advice. You have a way of looking at the world that makes sense to others and to yourself."
3. Judgment, critical thinking, and open-mindedness
- "Thinking things through and examining them from all sides are important aspects of who you are. You do not jump to conclusions, and you rely only on solid evidence to make your decisions. You are able to change your mind."
4. Gratitude
- "You are aware of the good things that happen to you, and you never take them for granted. Your friends and family members know that you are a grateful person because you always take the time to express your thanks."
5. Capacity to love and be loved
- "You value close relations with others in particular those in which sharing and caring are reciprocated. The people to whom you feel most close are the same people who feel most close to you."
I thought the strengths and their descriptions were pretty accurate. I mean, with this test, anyone could get any of the strengths and they would probably say they're accurate. But I feel like the strengths listed here are the ones that are most prevalent for me. Now, I just took this test the other day, so it's gonna be kind of hard for me to think of examples on how I put these into practice since then, but I will do my best.
1. As far as my sense of purpose goes, I definitely used it the most Monday morning, before my voice jury. I was about to sing for all four voice teachers at HSU. This is the final for voice lessons. It's where the voice teachers assess whether you have grown in your singing since the last semester. Even though I am technically a "voice principle," as in, singing is my primary "instrument" in the school of music, singing is not why I'm here. I'm here to write music. I was feeling pretty nervous before the jury began, but I reminded myself that singing was not the most important thing for me. If I did good, then great, and if I didn't do so good, then oh well, it's not like I failed at my dream or anything. My purpose was not to sing - it was to compose. Doing this jury was simply a little step, something very little I had to get through to go towards my real goal. Using my sense of purpose and faith in why I was really here helped take a lot of pressure off of me when I did my jury. And I actually did okay on my jury!
2. Okay, so this one is gonna be kinda sappy! Yesterday, my girlfriend and I were talking, specifically about what we had been through in high school, and what we had struggled with. She told me about how she had opened up to a few people about personal things too quickly. And I told her about how I had struggled with having friends that would open up to me about personal things so I could help them. It was then that I realized that we really were good for each other! She had me to open up to and trust, and I had someone to listen to. I could see why we were so good for each other in that moment even more than before. My "perspective wisdom" showed me the overall picture, and it is also what let my girlfriend see that she could trust me and open up to me when we first got close in the first place.
3. I'll be completely honest, I can't really think of any times since I took the test that I used my Judgement, Critical Thinking, and Open-Mindedness strength. In the past, when it seems like there has been miscommunication between some of my friends, they jump to conclusions, automatically thinking that the other friends were mad at them for some reason. I try to wait and see what the other friends say and get the whole story. Of course, it's very hard to tell sometimes what has actually happened, but I try to keep an open mind throughout and not jump to conclusions, like the strength says.
4. Gratitude is something that I need to use often. Honestly, I sometimes forget. One of the biggest examples of when I am aware of good things that happen to me is when I am exhausted and tired from all the work I have to do for college. It gets pretty annoying when you have so much to do everyday that you basically have no free time throughout the week. But it's during those stressed out times that I try to remind myself that I'm lucky to even be getting stressed from college, because at least I'm in college. There are lots of people out there that wish they could go to college but can't for some reason or other.
5. I think this is a general enough strength that I don't need to cite a specific moment in which it happens. Everything I do with others is with love. I live to love. I came to realize a few years ago that even though music was what I wanted to pursue as a career, loving others was what I was meant to pursue as a Christian. I try to be an example of Christ to others in order to show them the kind of love the Christ has shown me. It's also when I show others love that it's easier to see love that exists in the world amidst the darkness that is highlighted so very often these days. I try to show others that there is still hope in the world and that they can still make a difference.
1. Spirituality, sense of purpose, and faith
- "You have strong and coherent beliefs about the higher purpose and meaning of the universe. You know where you fit in the larger scheme. Your beliefs shape your actions and are a source of comfort to you."
2. Perspective wisdom
- "Although you may not think of yourself as wise, your friends hold this view of you. They value your perspective on matters and turn to you for advice. You have a way of looking at the world that makes sense to others and to yourself."
3. Judgment, critical thinking, and open-mindedness
- "Thinking things through and examining them from all sides are important aspects of who you are. You do not jump to conclusions, and you rely only on solid evidence to make your decisions. You are able to change your mind."
4. Gratitude
- "You are aware of the good things that happen to you, and you never take them for granted. Your friends and family members know that you are a grateful person because you always take the time to express your thanks."
5. Capacity to love and be loved
- "You value close relations with others in particular those in which sharing and caring are reciprocated. The people to whom you feel most close are the same people who feel most close to you."
I thought the strengths and their descriptions were pretty accurate. I mean, with this test, anyone could get any of the strengths and they would probably say they're accurate. But I feel like the strengths listed here are the ones that are most prevalent for me. Now, I just took this test the other day, so it's gonna be kind of hard for me to think of examples on how I put these into practice since then, but I will do my best.
1. As far as my sense of purpose goes, I definitely used it the most Monday morning, before my voice jury. I was about to sing for all four voice teachers at HSU. This is the final for voice lessons. It's where the voice teachers assess whether you have grown in your singing since the last semester. Even though I am technically a "voice principle," as in, singing is my primary "instrument" in the school of music, singing is not why I'm here. I'm here to write music. I was feeling pretty nervous before the jury began, but I reminded myself that singing was not the most important thing for me. If I did good, then great, and if I didn't do so good, then oh well, it's not like I failed at my dream or anything. My purpose was not to sing - it was to compose. Doing this jury was simply a little step, something very little I had to get through to go towards my real goal. Using my sense of purpose and faith in why I was really here helped take a lot of pressure off of me when I did my jury. And I actually did okay on my jury!
2. Okay, so this one is gonna be kinda sappy! Yesterday, my girlfriend and I were talking, specifically about what we had been through in high school, and what we had struggled with. She told me about how she had opened up to a few people about personal things too quickly. And I told her about how I had struggled with having friends that would open up to me about personal things so I could help them. It was then that I realized that we really were good for each other! She had me to open up to and trust, and I had someone to listen to. I could see why we were so good for each other in that moment even more than before. My "perspective wisdom" showed me the overall picture, and it is also what let my girlfriend see that she could trust me and open up to me when we first got close in the first place.
3. I'll be completely honest, I can't really think of any times since I took the test that I used my Judgement, Critical Thinking, and Open-Mindedness strength. In the past, when it seems like there has been miscommunication between some of my friends, they jump to conclusions, automatically thinking that the other friends were mad at them for some reason. I try to wait and see what the other friends say and get the whole story. Of course, it's very hard to tell sometimes what has actually happened, but I try to keep an open mind throughout and not jump to conclusions, like the strength says.
4. Gratitude is something that I need to use often. Honestly, I sometimes forget. One of the biggest examples of when I am aware of good things that happen to me is when I am exhausted and tired from all the work I have to do for college. It gets pretty annoying when you have so much to do everyday that you basically have no free time throughout the week. But it's during those stressed out times that I try to remind myself that I'm lucky to even be getting stressed from college, because at least I'm in college. There are lots of people out there that wish they could go to college but can't for some reason or other.
5. I think this is a general enough strength that I don't need to cite a specific moment in which it happens. Everything I do with others is with love. I live to love. I came to realize a few years ago that even though music was what I wanted to pursue as a career, loving others was what I was meant to pursue as a Christian. I try to be an example of Christ to others in order to show them the kind of love the Christ has shown me. It's also when I show others love that it's easier to see love that exists in the world amidst the darkness that is highlighted so very often these days. I try to show others that there is still hope in the world and that they can still make a difference.
- Christian
Monday, April 16, 2018
The Help of A Counselor
Okay, honesty time. I was supposed to find stories from people I know about positive impacts that a counselor has had on them. I asked multiple people, and while some of them had had counseling before... none of them really had a positive impact on them. That's not to say they had a bad impact, but they didn't do anything really life-changing. I wish I could tell of a big positive experience I've had with a counselor, but I myself have never had any counseling done.
One of my friends simply said "No, not really," when asked if they had ever had a counselor make a positive impact on their life. I didn't push the subject. Another friend that I know had counseling as a child, but he explained that it wasn't very helpful. In fact, he said, it was pretty useless. All they had him do was play games, but nothing to really help with the problem he was facing. And finally, my other friend said that all his counselor did was give him a bunch of drugs to take. I know that's a very crude way of saying it, but that's how he said it.
It makes wonder just how many counselors are doing their job well/correctly/effectively. Now that I think about it, I've heard more stories about counselors that didn't actually do anything to really help a person out than how they helped a person get through something. But then again, maybe that's just people highlighting the negatives much more than the positives that get overshadowed by the negatives. After all, people don't usually talk about what they don't need to worry about.
I was kind of disappointed to hear that none of my friends had really had good experiences with counselors. I do think that counselors play a positive role in our society, though. While I have never had a counseling session, I have known many counselors in my lifetime, and they all have seemed like great people. I am sure that they have helped many people around the world, and I hope that they continue to do so.
#CounselorsHelp
- Christian
One of my friends simply said "No, not really," when asked if they had ever had a counselor make a positive impact on their life. I didn't push the subject. Another friend that I know had counseling as a child, but he explained that it wasn't very helpful. In fact, he said, it was pretty useless. All they had him do was play games, but nothing to really help with the problem he was facing. And finally, my other friend said that all his counselor did was give him a bunch of drugs to take. I know that's a very crude way of saying it, but that's how he said it.
It makes wonder just how many counselors are doing their job well/correctly/effectively. Now that I think about it, I've heard more stories about counselors that didn't actually do anything to really help a person out than how they helped a person get through something. But then again, maybe that's just people highlighting the negatives much more than the positives that get overshadowed by the negatives. After all, people don't usually talk about what they don't need to worry about.
I was kind of disappointed to hear that none of my friends had really had good experiences with counselors. I do think that counselors play a positive role in our society, though. While I have never had a counseling session, I have known many counselors in my lifetime, and they all have seemed like great people. I am sure that they have helped many people around the world, and I hope that they continue to do so.
#CounselorsHelp
- Christian
Monday, April 2, 2018
My Story
I moved from Kansas City, Missouri, to Austin, Texas when I was in 7th grade, and it had a very big effect on me. To make a long story short, I drew into myself when I refused to accept that I had left the world that I thought would be mine the rest of my life. I didn't talk much in school and kept to myself for the most part. It was the first three years of me living in Austin that I discovered I was very introverted. There is nothing wrong with being introverted, but part of my problem was that I didn't want to even try to get out into the world, aka my school and social life, because I didn't want to admit that I wasn't going back to my hometown. I couldn't let it go. I wrestled with myself and with God. I didn't know why he would take everything I knew away from me.
It was during those three years that I realized the passion I felt toward music my whole life was something I wanted to pursue for the rest of it. I wanted to write epic-orchestral music, the kind of stuff you hear in movies, video games, and movie trailers. That kind of music had really been something I could escape to during my "time of silence," I guess you could say. There was a specific artist, called Two Steps From Hell, that I particular liked and quickly became my favorite artist of that genre. I had some experience in music, but not nearly enough to begin to write music, I thought. I didn't really know where to start. But I had to start somewhere.
I didn't know for sure if music really would be the thing I would want to stick with forever, but I wanted to give it a try. I didn't think I could join any ensemble at my high school. My school did, however, offer a music theory class, so I decided to do that. I knew it would be a good step toward being reintroduced to music-making. I took the class my Sophomore year. The class was pretty good - I was really good at knowing all the different terms and notes and chords we learned about. There was one thing, though, that I did not like about the class at all - sight-singing. I was terrible at it. I had never sight-read music to sing before, only stuff for orchestra in middle school and piano in elementary. That had been a long time ago. I disliked sight-singing so much that I knew I would not join choir. I had thought it a very tiny possibility, but after seeing how horrible sight-singing was, I knew there wasn't a chance. There was no orchestra in my school district, and I couldn't play any band instruments, so there was no way I could do those either. It looked like I would have to figure out music on my own.
It was mainly during the first-half of that year, my Sophomore year, that I finally came to grips with myself and where I was in my life. I was in Austin, Texas. I wasn't going back to Kansas City. I realized that, maybe, just maybe, I was meant to do something here. Maybe God had brought me here for a reason. I decided to trust him. So, going into the second half of the school year, I began to focus less on my past, and more on the present. I thought about what I was meant to do now. What I was meant to do here, in Austin, and not what I could have done back in Kansas City. By this time, I could now sight-read in music theory relatively well, so it wasn't as big of a fear for choir. I knew I should be in an ensemble, as it would be a very good experience for me, since I wanted to compose for large ensembles anyway. I signed up. I was still nervous to do it, since I had no idea what it was like, and since I was very reserved, I didn't know if I would be able to do well in such a large group that required lots of social interaction. I felt that the Lord wanted me to do it, though, so I tried not to worry too much.
Towards the end of the year, Two Steps From Hell came out with a new album called Battlecry. I bought the album the day it came out, as I was eager to listen to the new tracks. There was one track in particular that I really liked, which was called "Victory." That song specifically really gave me... courage. Determination. It was such a powerful song, I felt like I could rise up and do anything and be victorious. It was amazing.
Finally, during the last month of school, the choir had their final concert of the year. I figured, since I would be in the choir next year, I should go to the concert to see what it was like. I remember sitting towards the back of the auditorium, waiting for it to start. And then it began. The curtain opened, and there, standing before my eyes, were hundreds of students standing together on stage. Immediately I no longer saw the choir as a big group, but as a family. And then the music started. And they began to sing.
I'm certain it wasn't the best sound to ever come out of a choir, but to me, it was life-changing. Hearing all those students, who all came form different backgrounds, different stories, sing together to create something so powerful... It was awe-inspiring. My anticipation only grew as the concert progressed, and I got to see more of the individual talents within the choir. I finally saw the people that I wanted to be a part of. As I watched, it was almost as if something inside me snapped. I began to feel... different. Like I was no longer afraid. I wanted to do something amazing when I was in choir. I wanted to get good at music. I wanted to write music unlike anyone had ever heard before. I had had no idea how I would do it, but now I didn't care. All I could do was work as hard as I could, trust God, and continue making mistakes until I figured it out.
It was as I sat there, watching the choir sing, that I felt the Lord tell me that, yes, that's what I was supposed to do. I was meant to do music. It was then I knew I had nothing to be afraid of, as long as I worked hard and did it all for Him. It was like I was no longer walking in darkness, but in light.
The concert finally ended. They played a fun song on the sound system and the whole choir danced to it on stage. I remember standing at the very back-top part of the auditorium, watching all of them up there, knowing I would be on that very stage, doing that same thing, one year from then. I put in my earbuds, played "Victory," and began to walk out of the auditorium. It was as I was walking out, listening to "Victory," that a heavy, cold determination settled upon me. It was like the song perfectly described the emotions I was feeling in that moment. The song motivated me to make a decision. I was going to spend the summer getting back to the piano and start trying to write music. As hard as I could. I wouldn't stop. I wanted to make my mark once I joined choir. I wanted to be musically experienced again. And this was when it would happen.
"Victory" by Two Steps From Hell, composed by Thomas Bergersen:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hKRUPYrAQoE
I've never experienced a summer quite like the summer of 2015. I spent a lot of that time getting acquainted with the piano and getting familiar with the makings of a good melody in music. By the time it was over, I could play relatively okay on the piano (I think), and I had a few melodies and chords going for me. And then my Junior year began.
I could elaborate on everything that happened the following two years, my final two years of high school. But all I'll say is this: It was amazing. It was life-changing. Never had I been a part of such an incredible group of individuals. In those two years, I overcame my fear of being in large social groups, got very comfortable with singing and sight-reading, participated in the school musical (which was huge), became a part of my school's show choir (a choir that sings and dances to intense choreography) and went to a competition in Ft. Worth for it, sang a solo during one of our concert, composed my first fully orchestral song, and played and sang a lyrical song that I had written at my final choir concert of my senior year. I even spoke at our Fellowship of Christian Athletes.
Something about seeing my choir perform at the end of my Sophomore year took away my fear. God used it to open my eyes. He showed me that music is something that can bring people together and inspire the dreams of others. I know because that's what happened to me.
The final weekend of my Senior year, I composed my first choral song. I wrote it as a sort-of thank-you to my choir and its directors, who changed my life and set me on the path I still pursue. Just two years after I saw them perform for the first time. I had come such a long way.
I will always remember them and the song "Victory" as the keys that God used to unlock my personal realization - my purpose. Yes, now I know. God had brought me to Austin for a reason. And I am so thankful for it.
#PsychStory
It was during those three years that I realized the passion I felt toward music my whole life was something I wanted to pursue for the rest of it. I wanted to write epic-orchestral music, the kind of stuff you hear in movies, video games, and movie trailers. That kind of music had really been something I could escape to during my "time of silence," I guess you could say. There was a specific artist, called Two Steps From Hell, that I particular liked and quickly became my favorite artist of that genre. I had some experience in music, but not nearly enough to begin to write music, I thought. I didn't really know where to start. But I had to start somewhere.
I didn't know for sure if music really would be the thing I would want to stick with forever, but I wanted to give it a try. I didn't think I could join any ensemble at my high school. My school did, however, offer a music theory class, so I decided to do that. I knew it would be a good step toward being reintroduced to music-making. I took the class my Sophomore year. The class was pretty good - I was really good at knowing all the different terms and notes and chords we learned about. There was one thing, though, that I did not like about the class at all - sight-singing. I was terrible at it. I had never sight-read music to sing before, only stuff for orchestra in middle school and piano in elementary. That had been a long time ago. I disliked sight-singing so much that I knew I would not join choir. I had thought it a very tiny possibility, but after seeing how horrible sight-singing was, I knew there wasn't a chance. There was no orchestra in my school district, and I couldn't play any band instruments, so there was no way I could do those either. It looked like I would have to figure out music on my own.
It was mainly during the first-half of that year, my Sophomore year, that I finally came to grips with myself and where I was in my life. I was in Austin, Texas. I wasn't going back to Kansas City. I realized that, maybe, just maybe, I was meant to do something here. Maybe God had brought me here for a reason. I decided to trust him. So, going into the second half of the school year, I began to focus less on my past, and more on the present. I thought about what I was meant to do now. What I was meant to do here, in Austin, and not what I could have done back in Kansas City. By this time, I could now sight-read in music theory relatively well, so it wasn't as big of a fear for choir. I knew I should be in an ensemble, as it would be a very good experience for me, since I wanted to compose for large ensembles anyway. I signed up. I was still nervous to do it, since I had no idea what it was like, and since I was very reserved, I didn't know if I would be able to do well in such a large group that required lots of social interaction. I felt that the Lord wanted me to do it, though, so I tried not to worry too much.
Towards the end of the year, Two Steps From Hell came out with a new album called Battlecry. I bought the album the day it came out, as I was eager to listen to the new tracks. There was one track in particular that I really liked, which was called "Victory." That song specifically really gave me... courage. Determination. It was such a powerful song, I felt like I could rise up and do anything and be victorious. It was amazing.Finally, during the last month of school, the choir had their final concert of the year. I figured, since I would be in the choir next year, I should go to the concert to see what it was like. I remember sitting towards the back of the auditorium, waiting for it to start. And then it began. The curtain opened, and there, standing before my eyes, were hundreds of students standing together on stage. Immediately I no longer saw the choir as a big group, but as a family. And then the music started. And they began to sing.
I'm certain it wasn't the best sound to ever come out of a choir, but to me, it was life-changing. Hearing all those students, who all came form different backgrounds, different stories, sing together to create something so powerful... It was awe-inspiring. My anticipation only grew as the concert progressed, and I got to see more of the individual talents within the choir. I finally saw the people that I wanted to be a part of. As I watched, it was almost as if something inside me snapped. I began to feel... different. Like I was no longer afraid. I wanted to do something amazing when I was in choir. I wanted to get good at music. I wanted to write music unlike anyone had ever heard before. I had had no idea how I would do it, but now I didn't care. All I could do was work as hard as I could, trust God, and continue making mistakes until I figured it out.
It was as I sat there, watching the choir sing, that I felt the Lord tell me that, yes, that's what I was supposed to do. I was meant to do music. It was then I knew I had nothing to be afraid of, as long as I worked hard and did it all for Him. It was like I was no longer walking in darkness, but in light.
The concert finally ended. They played a fun song on the sound system and the whole choir danced to it on stage. I remember standing at the very back-top part of the auditorium, watching all of them up there, knowing I would be on that very stage, doing that same thing, one year from then. I put in my earbuds, played "Victory," and began to walk out of the auditorium. It was as I was walking out, listening to "Victory," that a heavy, cold determination settled upon me. It was like the song perfectly described the emotions I was feeling in that moment. The song motivated me to make a decision. I was going to spend the summer getting back to the piano and start trying to write music. As hard as I could. I wouldn't stop. I wanted to make my mark once I joined choir. I wanted to be musically experienced again. And this was when it would happen.
"Victory" by Two Steps From Hell, composed by Thomas Bergersen:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hKRUPYrAQoE
I've never experienced a summer quite like the summer of 2015. I spent a lot of that time getting acquainted with the piano and getting familiar with the makings of a good melody in music. By the time it was over, I could play relatively okay on the piano (I think), and I had a few melodies and chords going for me. And then my Junior year began.
I could elaborate on everything that happened the following two years, my final two years of high school. But all I'll say is this: It was amazing. It was life-changing. Never had I been a part of such an incredible group of individuals. In those two years, I overcame my fear of being in large social groups, got very comfortable with singing and sight-reading, participated in the school musical (which was huge), became a part of my school's show choir (a choir that sings and dances to intense choreography) and went to a competition in Ft. Worth for it, sang a solo during one of our concert, composed my first fully orchestral song, and played and sang a lyrical song that I had written at my final choir concert of my senior year. I even spoke at our Fellowship of Christian Athletes.
Something about seeing my choir perform at the end of my Sophomore year took away my fear. God used it to open my eyes. He showed me that music is something that can bring people together and inspire the dreams of others. I know because that's what happened to me.
The final weekend of my Senior year, I composed my first choral song. I wrote it as a sort-of thank-you to my choir and its directors, who changed my life and set me on the path I still pursue. Just two years after I saw them perform for the first time. I had come such a long way.
I will always remember them and the song "Victory" as the keys that God used to unlock my personal realization - my purpose. Yes, now I know. God had brought me to Austin for a reason. And I am so thankful for it.
#PsychStory
Me performing my first lyrical song ever. This was at my final choir
concert of my senior year. It was also the first time one of my songs
had been performed for a public audience.
- Christian
Wednesday, March 14, 2018
How To Learn
I've been watching some videos about learning. A lot of the time, these sources say the same thing: Learning takes time, that is, learning something and getting pretty good at it. There was a specific video that talked about how long it takes us to learn something and get it down relatively well. Not becoming an expert, necessarily, but knowing a subject enough to have a good foundation on how to do it, whatever it may be. It really caught my attention.
Josh Kaufman talked about how it is widely thought that 10,000 hours are needed to learn something relatively well. However, this is actually only true for if you want to become a legit pro/expert at something that is in a highly competitive field, requiring you to be one of the best in the whole world. But Josh said that in order to get good enough at something so that you're not bad at it (in other words, have a solid foundation on it), you only need twenty hours. He gave four main steps that you need to take in order to do it:
This means taking apart the skill you want to learn and focusing certain aspects of it at a time. Our brains have a harder time getting stuff down (usually) when there's more to be doing at once. Therefore, when we focus on little things at a time and have those things accumulate on top of each other over time, it gets easier in the long run, and ultimately save a lot of time. This makes is possible to fit everything in twenty hours and still be pretty good at the skill overall.
2. Learn Enough to Self-Correct
In other words, know the subject enough that you can realize when you mess up as you go, and are able to correct the problem then and there. It makes sense. I understand that we have to go through trial and error, but what's the point of going through the process of trial and error when you don't even know you've made an error? This also where step one comes in. Once you make an error, because you will have deconstructed the different parts of the subject or action, you'll already know the best way to fix whichever part of the process you messed up on.
3. Remove Practice Barriers
I cannot stress how important this is. I myself can attest to how much of a distraction things can be, whether it be social media, video games and TV, food, or even friends and family. There have been many times that I have sat down to write music or practice the piano or violin and get distracted by a notification that pops up on my phone, or even the thought of anything that can give me something to do when I'm out of ideas for music, or don't feel like trying as hard. These distractions give us a very poor excuse to stop and play a HUGE role when it comes to hindering us from achieving our goals in good time.
4. Practice at least 20 Hours
This, of course, is a step that has to be in here. That's what this is all about! Get those twenty hours in. You can do all the past steps, but there's no point in doing them if you're not going to put in the time. I was very intrigued by what Josh said in the video, and I really want to test his theory. Twenty hours. I think I'll try doing twenty hours of something over the summer. Probably music-related. Maybe I'll make blog posts about it.
I think what Josh talked about was a very clear explanation of some of the best conditions our brains need in order to learn well. It's all about focus. We deconstruct the subject so we can focus on the little parts that make up the overall picture, and make them easier to correct. Removing the practice barriers helps us stay focused on the goal at hand, and not straying away from it.
- Christian
Studying My Girlfriend's Character
I’ve known my girlfriend, Kara, for about six months now, and over that period of time, I have gotten to know her pretty well. I have also learned a lot about her personal story, and how events in her life have played a role in her personality and how she views certain aspects of life. Kara is kind, caring, quiet, can be very funny, but also very serious. While these are only just a few of her many traits as herself, and as a human being, I will mainly be focusing on these for the sake of this project.
Kara has always been relatively shy. She wasn’t one of those children that could just go up to someone and start talking to them. She was the child that usually hid behind her parent’s leg, you could say. I understand this, as I was the same way. Throughout her older years, going through school, and many other social situations, she learned to be around new people, but still finds it hard most of the time to just be automatically interactive with people of whom she has never had any affiliation with before. That being said, sometimes she can be quite social if she feels the atmosphere given off by the new people she is with is a good one, a safe one. Again, I can attest to this for myself, so I know it is a plausible thought process. And, since I am familiar with that thought process, I can safely assume that she is an introvert. Not only does it take her awhile to adapt to meeting new people, being around people for a long time (people she is familiar with or not), can exhaust her. After spending a long time with others, she needs to spend some time alone or with one other person in order to recharge.
I have met Kara’s parents and have gotten to know them well enough to see that they brought her up to be a very kind and thoughtful young lady towards others. Being brought up in church has also played a huge role in her life when it comes to being caring, and putting others’ needs before hers. She is always ready to listen to other people, and I know she has been this way for a long time. There were many times in school that people would come to her, asking for advice. While she sometimes feels like she struggles with the right words to describe her thoughts and ideas, she is usually able to show what she feels for others in her actions, and that’s what matters the most. Because she cares so much about the feelings of others, it becomes one of the most important things to her when making decisions that can affect other people. So, I can safely say that feelings are one of Kara’s most valued values. However, Kara will not sacrifice the truth and fact for someone’s feelings, which is good.
She will never admit it, but Kara is a very humorous person. Like most human beings, she finds joy in laughter. She’s always liked to watch funny movies and shows, whether it’s Hannah Montana from when she was younger, or The Office, which she still watches today… a lot. Another big thing that has impacted her in this aspect is social media. With the appearance of Vine and YouTube, Kara has found many funny videos to quote, reference, and reenact throughout… well, everyday. It’s being able to lightheartedly participate in funny things like this that Kara is able to socially connect to a lot of people, even if she doesn’t realize it. I’ve seen her laughing with many people that have seen some of the same funny videos she has, even if she doesn’t know them very well. This is yet another thing that contributes to her being able to connect with others, even if on a small level. Those first small levels of connection are so very important when starting a relationship with someone, no matter what kind it is.
Despite being very funny, Kara is very mature, being able to make good decisions about important tasks, such as assignments, or dealing with a situation that’s going on in her life. I constantly see her writing things in her planner, or just talking out her schedule to herself about what she needs to get done throughout the day. She is very easily able to remember things that are happening throughout the week and day (this something that Kara and I differ on, haha), and adjusting plans in order to appropriately fit with the events that are to come. She is a very big planner.
Taking all of these factors into account, and as I got to know her, I felt like she fit the personality of someone that is very warm and loving, mature and able to make important decisions, and very people-oriented, since her relationships with others she takes very seriously. I like to think of what her personality type would be in the Myers-Briggs test, and I know it would be pretty similar to mine, of not the same. I thought about this for a little while, actually, and felt that she was an INFJ or ENFJ. I was pretty sure she was more introverted than extroverted at the time, but wasn’t a hundred percent sure. I felt that she was similar enough to me that it was one of those two. I later had her take the test, and she took it more than once. She got ISFJ. I was pretty close. The more I thought about it, the more it made sense. Maybe her being able to recognize little things wasn’t a big as it was being able to recognize physical aspects of things in general. Overall, it was very interesting figuring out just who Kara was, and still is. I’m still learning more about her everyday.
Sensation and Perception
How our minds sense and perceive things can vary from person to person. Sometimes this is because of our brains directly and how they're wired, and others could have to do with our experiences. I read and watched some stuff about it, and I actually had a different personal explanation of how our brains could perceive things differently. I'll get to that in a little bit.
There was an article about "the dress." If you don't know what "the dress" is, it's a picture of a dress that was posted to the internet a few years back. Many people claimed that the dress was black and blue while others said that it was white and gold. I remember when it happened, people at my school were talking about it everywhere. I myself saw a white dress with gold stripes on it. I couldn't believe that others were seeing a black dress with blue stripes. Turns out the dress really was black and blue. To this day, I, along with many others, see the dress as white and gold.
The article explained what happens with the lighting and as it enters the eye, and if I'm completely honest, it didn't make much sense to me at all - it would be a lot easier to understand this (and many of these other things) if it was actually taught to me in person. Apparently, how we perceive the colors of the dress have to do with the time of day it is when we look at it. If we look at it during midday, it appears more white and gold, but if we look at it at night, it can look more black and blue. Depending on the time of day, it can play a role on what initial first burst of light goes through to our brain... or something like that. This doesn't make much sense to me since I've looked at the picture late, and it still looks white and gold, and when people that were seeing black and blue at my school, it was around noon. So I don't know. What colors do you see?
Here's a link to the article: https://www.wired.com/2015/02/science-one-agrees-color-dress/
Another thing I looked at was a video about Synesthesia. Synesthesia is the cross-blending of senses, such as saying that a certain number is a certain color, even thought numbers don't have any real color, or that a certain color would sound a certain way, even though colors don't really have sound. David Eagleman talked about how how we use synesthesia could be inherited genetically. I found that very interesting, thought I wasn't sure if that was always the cause. Of course, I don't think he thinks it's always the cause either. They're still doing research on it, but I have my own theory. I think a big part of it is little things that indicate certain colors for numbers or letters, or sounds for colors, when we are young, how we encounter them throughout our life, and what kinds of emotions we associate them. For example, when I was little, I had puzzle of the United States. Each state was one of like five or six different colors. Now, even when I'm 19 years old, I think of many of the states as those same colors that I associated them with though that puzzle. I still picture Texas being green, Missouri being red, Arkansas being orange, Illinois being yellow, Iowa being blue, and Alaska being purple. This is all because of how I perceive those states when I was young. Same goes for letters. I had flashcards of letters that I had to color. So now I picture A being red or pink, B being blue, C being red, D being brown, and so on.
Here's a link to the video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FTr1VnXKr4A
- Christian
There was an article about "the dress." If you don't know what "the dress" is, it's a picture of a dress that was posted to the internet a few years back. Many people claimed that the dress was black and blue while others said that it was white and gold. I remember when it happened, people at my school were talking about it everywhere. I myself saw a white dress with gold stripes on it. I couldn't believe that others were seeing a black dress with blue stripes. Turns out the dress really was black and blue. To this day, I, along with many others, see the dress as white and gold.
The article explained what happens with the lighting and as it enters the eye, and if I'm completely honest, it didn't make much sense to me at all - it would be a lot easier to understand this (and many of these other things) if it was actually taught to me in person. Apparently, how we perceive the colors of the dress have to do with the time of day it is when we look at it. If we look at it during midday, it appears more white and gold, but if we look at it at night, it can look more black and blue. Depending on the time of day, it can play a role on what initial first burst of light goes through to our brain... or something like that. This doesn't make much sense to me since I've looked at the picture late, and it still looks white and gold, and when people that were seeing black and blue at my school, it was around noon. So I don't know. What colors do you see?Here's a link to the article: https://www.wired.com/2015/02/science-one-agrees-color-dress/
Another thing I looked at was a video about Synesthesia. Synesthesia is the cross-blending of senses, such as saying that a certain number is a certain color, even thought numbers don't have any real color, or that a certain color would sound a certain way, even though colors don't really have sound. David Eagleman talked about how how we use synesthesia could be inherited genetically. I found that very interesting, thought I wasn't sure if that was always the cause. Of course, I don't think he thinks it's always the cause either. They're still doing research on it, but I have my own theory. I think a big part of it is little things that indicate certain colors for numbers or letters, or sounds for colors, when we are young, how we encounter them throughout our life, and what kinds of emotions we associate them. For example, when I was little, I had puzzle of the United States. Each state was one of like five or six different colors. Now, even when I'm 19 years old, I think of many of the states as those same colors that I associated them with though that puzzle. I still picture Texas being green, Missouri being red, Arkansas being orange, Illinois being yellow, Iowa being blue, and Alaska being purple. This is all because of how I perceive those states when I was young. Same goes for letters. I had flashcards of letters that I had to color. So now I picture A being red or pink, B being blue, C being red, D being brown, and so on.Here's a link to the video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FTr1VnXKr4A
- Christian
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